12 Days

AHHHHH!!! I could scream right now! I read my ING Marathon Handbook before bed last night and kept having dreams that I woke up late and missed the start! Then I had another dream I made it to the start line but when I got to the locker room at the end (there will be 0 locker rooms, mind you) I couldn't remember if I finished the race or not!

THEN I woke up late and tired this morning. I tried to mentally prepare myself for my morning run but just felt the weight of making it to work on time which is stupid because I'm always at least 20 minutes early for work.

Here's the reality. The run was terrible. I felt like I had cinder blocks for legs and as if my lungs were working against me. I only made it 2.89 miles and that is just NOT acceptable. I guess I need a new approach. Running is my haven, my positive experience! Running is the calming moment of my day when I don't have to think about anyone - but I can't help thinking about EVERYONE and EVERYTHING now. I just want to scream, SHUT UP!

There was one good thing this morning - so I'll focus on this and stop complaining (its not very becoming). When I entered the park I heard a Mocking Bird call. Usually I associate this with the spring and yet it is currently the fall. It was a comforting reminder of my favorite fact of life: this too shall pass. This season will lead into the next and then the next after that. Time keeps moving and thank God it does. Nothing is forever - a bad run, a bad day (or month in my case), a bad decision. Nothing. This too shall pass.

So, here's to tomorrow! Here's to tomorrow's run being better than today! Onward and upward - because this chick is done swirling downward.